Hidden feelings

  You kiss her,
hold her, love her.
I look on,
envious...
Wishing I were her.
  There are two sides
to what I feel,
for you...
  I want you,
as mine.
  Seeing you,
my heart hastens,
my tummy
goes funny... I
can't help but smile.
    I need you.
I need you to
kiss me, hold me,
love me.
   But...
I want you to
 be happy.
She makes you
smile, laugh.
   You're fighting,
you may break up.
Part me is happy but..
The other part sorrowful.
  If she leaves you,
you'll change,
no longer will
you be the joyful
friend I love.
You will be sad,
down, depressed.
  So for this reason,
I put away what
I feel for you. I'll
help you sort out
your problems,
So you stay together,
and stay happy.
   No matter how
much I want to
be with you, I want
whats best for you more.
  I care more about
how you feel, than
what I feel.