Goodbye

  Saying goodbye to you,
I remember so clearly.
  The look in your eyes,
mirrored the feeling in my heart.
  Our farewell wave,
hands falling to our sides.
  Then the atmosphere changes,
I want, I need a real goodbye.

  My arms cling around your,
neck with an iron grip.
  Our lips locked,
moving in sync.
  My tongue explores your mouth,
tasting our salty tears,
as they fall.

  One hand locks your hair,
while the other slowly,
gently slides down your back.
  I'm telling you...
"I want a goodbye to remember,
a night to never forget."
  But you and your morals,
the ones I fell in love with.

  Finally parting our lips,
we gaze into each others
eyes down into the depths of our souls.
  There is no need for words,
our hearts send our,
feelings one to the other.

  I can...
Feel you, see you, know you.
  Saying goodbye to you,
is the hardest thing I've
ever had to do!

You don't understand me

  You don't understand me,
You don't understand
how I feel.
  You don't understand
what I want, need.
 You don't understand,
my goals or career.
  You don't understand,
my religious view.
  You don't understand,
that I see beauty in the ugly.
  You don't understand,
that I observe the world, fascinated.
  You don't understand,
why I cry over others grievance.
  You don't understand,
why I smile for others glee.
  You don't understand,
why I enjoy writing.
  You don't understand,
that I'd rather read than use,
modern technology.
  You don't understand,
how deeply I feel for everything.

   You don't understand me.
But how can I expect you to,
when I don't even understand myself.

Rain and Sun

 The rain;
a million tiny drops,
of sadness.

 The droplets each represent,
a tear that has been shed.
 A shower may have,
fallen because a...
Loved one has left you,
Or maybe a
heart has been broken.

 The skies will open,
 and a downpour will fall,
every-ones dark feelings are shown.

 But after each rainfall,
the sun will shine;
the rain will dry.

 The sadness will not,
be forgotten.
 We just remember that...
Glee and sadness mixed
together,
 make something beautiful...

 Rain and sun make a rainbow.

I'm changing for you

 I'm changing,
I am different than,
who I used to be.

 I used to be:
the sweet girl,
next door.
 Now cheekiness and nastiness
has taken over,
my sweet persona.

 I'm changing,
I am different than,
who I used to be.

I used to wear,
natural make-up
and hair.
 Now my hair is chopped,
eyes black, lips red.

 I'm changing,
I am different than,
I used to be.

 I used to be;
a curvaceous size fourteen,
with cute clothes to show,
the sweet girl inside me.
 Now I go to the gym;
lost a stone, now am a size eight.
My clothes are tight, and
short, skimpy all day and night.

 I'm changing,
who I am to,
who you want me to be.
I do not know if I like,
the new me.
 But if you like it, can I,
go back to the real me?

 I'm changing for you.

Whisper sweet, sweet lies to me again

Lying next to me,

hand in hand,

You whisper in my ear softly...

 "You are amzing"

Is this a truthful lie?

Why are you quitly speaking,

sweet things to me?

Are they what you truly feel or

is there something you want from me?

 Soft as a feather,

your lips reach mine,

hopefully to part away, never.

 "You are so beautiful"

Is this a kind hearted hyperbole?

I can be pretty...

Sometimes. But beautiful?

Your hands stroke across my chest,

should I lay this night,

to rest?

 How far your sweet,
sweet lies got you.

 I thought the words you spoke,

were the feelings yu felt.

 Now, I sit alone.

Hand on my blossoming belly.

Waiting for you to whisper...

Whisper sweet, sweet lies to me again.

My first Sonnet

Our lips shared an intimate touch,
your hands gently caressed my body.
I pull away,
fighting against my inner longing and desire.
You do not want the same,
as I do with thee.
You want to kiss,
hidden under an old mysterious tree.
I want to hold you, kiss you, love you,
I do not know what to do.
Could I bear to part my lips from yours...
to tell you how I want us to be?
Or should I stay as we are,
under our old mysterious tree.!?